Holiday tahun ni boring la..

Ignorance

Ignorance is simply the best word to describe how i feel now..
When you think that you have the friends you have now, things turn out to be the total opposite way..
I realised i have to stop being the goodie-good person.. I need to stop myself from being so nice anymore..
I need to stand for myself.. So what if you guys dont treat my like how u treat other friends.. I dont fucking give a fucking damn about it anymore.. I DONT need u guys to be with me.. I can have other much better friends.. Not to say u guys are useless.. But u guys suck.. I just have to move on in life and make better friends from now on then ...

Due to Sam's request i updated my blog..
i wanted to just delete my blog.. got no time to update la..
nothing much had been going on.
studies are going on so-so.. relationship .. hmmm.. very well handled..
and the rest are just fine..
the worst thing is my bday party had to be postponed ..
coZ exam is so near my birthday.. practically just a few days after..
so i might do it during november...
which is around a month after my birthday..
Well, i cant do anything right..
And it had been so freaking long since i saw someone.. i miss that person a lot la..
tell me what to do?
almost a month already.. hahahaha
*Big-drama-queen mood

Argh!!! who cares la.. i get to see that person tomorrow if everything goes well..
and oh yeah!!
at last i get to understand a little much better of add maths.. i used to not do homework..
but then now at least i do a little. coz i understand .. SOME only la..
hahhaah.. better than nothing rite..
i just hope i dont fail again for end term coz my results deteriorate coz of my add maths only .
the rest are getting better..
i hope it stays like this.. or become better..
AND btw
SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all the Muslims out there..
have a great holiday..
i think i'll stop now.. okay.. until the next post.. take care.. and goodbye..

i'll try to update a.s.a.p..
byebye!!

All i can say now is that u dont seem to trust me anymore..
U seem to say that u do but i know that u dont.
Im sorry for everything..
I know u wont forgive me although u say u will..
Im really sorry..

Everyone now is sick. All i wanna say is take care to everyone out there.

This will be the last day i'm gonna see you alone.
This is the last day i would hold u side by side.
I will only get to do so a month later.
30 more days. 720 more hours. 43200 minutes. 2592000 seconds.
damn bloody long u know.
Nvm. I'll be strong..
I HOPE I CAN BE STRONG LA.
I HOPE I DONT CRY AT NIGHT WHEN I THINK ABOUT U.
OOPS.. haha.. i shouldnt be talking bout this lar..
anyway.. take care everyone .. with the disease H1N1 spreading its damn dangerous.
BUT IM GOING JJ THIS FRIDAY ..HAHAH

Anyway.. take care.. i love you.. hehe

I know what I did last 2 nights was bad( friday)
but I didn't mean to do it.. I'm really sorry k.
I promise i won't do it again.
sorry..

Everything seems to be going just fine. N0thing is going wrong. Except that exam is coming soon. Around next week and i haven't study yet. I'll try to study soon. I just don't have the mood to study now. So we'll wait and see.
And besides that, MPP ( MAJLIS PERPISAHAN PENGAWAS) costs rm40 and its in KEC. So bloody expensive. Actually not that expensive la but i have to buy tickets for Convent Canteen Day summore.. So where am i to find money ?!

Anyways I dunno who to bring along with me. Hahaha.. Weird right?!
Haiyo i dunno wht to say ad la..
k la.. gtg.. byebye..

I miss you!!!

I'm not ending it..
hehehe..

Relationships are meant to be sweet. If a certain relationship is filled with the opposite, what is the use of being in a relationship? U might just stop it and go on with life. Many things occured lately and I had the slightest thought of ending one. One side of the heart says no while the other says go ahead. I do not want to end this as i love being in it so much.


I just wanna think this all over again.



i dont need anyone's help.. let me think alone..

I want to skip school even just for a day. can?
I'm so tired from going to school. The lack of sleep disease is haunting me again.
Not that i don't want to sleep, but I have to wake up so darn early.
I wanna stop all my current activities but I don't have the approval yet.
I wanna be a normal student; away from all the heavy duties and reponsibilities.
I wanna be my own self again.
I think I should stop acting.
I don't wanna be trap in my own world again.
A world where only fantasy is reality .





I need you with me. To survive this battle. Are you willing to do it for me ?

STUPID ADD MATHS
i could have pass with better result ..
i'll TRY to pass next time!!!

Last Wednesday was awesome.. Went out with fellow prefects that day. Eric, Roy , Yin Yin, Jonathan, Ee-Wern, Darshan , Thashene, Aishahtul, Mayure and Fawwaz came. I went with them for about half an hour then i left with another person.. They watched Monster vs Aliens while i watched Night At The Museum 2 .. Well, the first movie was much better than the second one i can say.. Maybe cause i wasn't really paying attention.. haha.. Then later on we went walking up and down the whole mall .. Like crazy ppl.. Well only the two of us .. Later on met up with Aishahtul and Mayure and also Thashene and maybe an hour later i went home.. And the best part was i think i met Fawwaz so many times that day.. He was with us at first but he followed Syaza who came back from MRSM. Almost every hour i met him.. hahaha.. Cool right.. When i reached home tht day i have a sense of happiness and gladness .. No idea why.. But i couldnt sleep that night.. It wasn't because of the movie.. But maybe something else la.. hahah..

The next day i cut my hair. Its so bloddy weird.. I DONT dare to go out anymore.. Maybe cause its diff frm my usual length.. But everyone says tht it looks the same.. haha.. i dunno la..
Maybe next week going out again.. This time watching 17 Again.. hahah.. hope it will turn out as fun as last week la..

I seriously dunno what else to write anymore.. I suck at blogging..

OMG..
It had been ages since i last posted..
stupid exams..
At last the exams are over..
And i'm going out next week.
Muahhaha..
The last time i watched a movie at the cinema was around last year..
How long was that.
My life suck wei..
Seriously..
I hate 'penguin' so much..
I just got a scolding from her 2 weeks ago just because she didn't approve of
the earring i wear..
I mean wtf la..
It wasn't long or dangling anyhow but she insisted that i change it.
but still i didn't change it. who cares la..
I'm not her dog to tag around.
She caught me again today..
I just say i don't have another kind so i won't change..
And i walked off..
I guess she was shocked or something..
But still i don't care anymore..

I dunno whether to stop accounts or not..
HELP ME!!

Something to be expressed

I was a little heartbroken when i heard about it.
Nothing else hurt me except for those words.
I'm gonna work hard on it and yours truly do not want to hear
it again.
And i'm gonna make u guys regret what the shit u guys said and let
me tell ya i'm not gonna let it go that easily.
If i know who the hell are you,
you're gonna be so dead cause i'm gonna prove
that you're so wrong.
So just wait and see..
I'm gonna be better than what u said and insulted on me..
Just wait and see you idiots!!!
I'm gonna get even with you..
Don't think that because i'm being myself is wrong..
I am who i am..
I'm not being somebody else..
Not like you..
I hate you!!!

p.s: i'm pissed at the moment.. And i don't feel like telling what happened.. so don't bother asking me.. And its not that i dun wanna share it with anyone, but i think that its better left alone with me.. so sorry guys..

Remember what i said before about giving up on studies?
Well i decided to keep studying..
Coz i realised that giving up is just not in me..
I can't seem to give up now..
I'm still young..
I cried many times because the stress of studying especially understanding
Add Maths.
But now i'm trying to be stronger..
I'm starting to like Add Maths although
i can't really solve it..
And also Physics which i hated a lot a first.
Giving up at the beginning does not help..
I wanna get good grades for SPM and prove
do those a** holes that i can achieve something in life
if i am determined..
Let me tell you..
I'm not gonna give up anymore..
Thanks for helping me my dear.

i wanna give up on studies lar..
i really suffered from studies..
i had been upset for so many days because of it..
ish!!!!!!!
someone help me please!!!

surprised and shocked

It started of yterday..
i went tr around 5.30..
there was this 2 women walking or jogging..
i dunno la..
they were behind me..
so i just kept on walking..
then i walked on faster coz they seem scary ..
i walked on until there was this lane..
i know that this lane has a dead end..
and amazingly guess they dunno the way to get out they followed me..
and then i turned..
they looked blur..
and asked me in mandarin
" here can go out?"
i said." no , cannot. must go out this lane and turn right"
then they said " oh, thank u ah! . but hor i scared i lost la, can bring me?"
i was talking to myself " wat the@#$%, cant u go urself'"
so i just showed them where to go and went themselves
i mean like i showed u the way and no thank u..
wats wrong with Malaysian ppl..
dont u have any politeness in u anymore..
damn!!!

i think it has been ages since i last posted bout something..
u guys know lar ..
exams and stuff..
hahha..
speaking bout exams ..
dont have to say anymore..
my results are horribly bad..
so lets just skip that..
SPM and STPM results have came out..
congrats to u guys out there with excellent results..
its my turn next year..
damn i hate major examination..

btw..
i have been thinking lots lately..
i have made lots off mistakes in life ..
i think i should change to be a better person..
so u guys out there..
if u saw me doing something wrong..
just hit me kay..
well not that hard la..
a slight wack on the arm will do..
lol..
wat the hell am i craping..
anyway..
guess no one is reading my blog anymore coz it sucks..
byebye..take care..

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I'm so frustrated about life..
Why does it seem that as we grow older we have to face
such strong circumstances in life..
Exams, stress, homework, life. etc..
Why can't life be easier?
Why couldn't it be just filled with fun and not sorrow.
I'm hoping for a better life soon..
Or else i definitely will fall apart!!

And ooo...
cross- country was fun!!!
For the first time i didn't have to run coz i was on duty
at the checkpoint..
muhahah..
The best thing was I didn't have to run ..
I just had to give out rubber bands to the first 100 of each category..
And let me tell ya..
It was so exciting..
we got to see who came firstfor each category!!!
okay that's lame.
well when i have the time i'll post the pic..
well..
not like anyone reads my blog anymore..
hahahha..
anyway..
good luck in the first monthly exam everyone!!
i hope i don't fail add maths..

Valentine

I love that thing!!!!
If ur wondering wat it is then too bad i cant tell u
Today is Valentine's day..
was a normal day at first..
As soon as the presents were given out then it all started..
Roses , lolipops, soft toys ..
Couples were seen almost everywhere..
Feel so jealous la..
Seing them so in love..
So into each other..
hahha..
Tonight gonna watch movie..
Hope i'll be back soon cause i wanna online..
hahaha..
i'm stuck..
I have no idea wat to write..



HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE

Its like 1.30 in the morning.
I'm still not asleep..
I have no friggin idea why..
Haahah..

I'm gonna suffer for the whole week.
My two cousins are coming to stay coz my aunt is in Cambodia or something..
I have to baby-sit them..
OMG..
One of them is 6 and the other is 3.
Do u know how hard is it to take care of two small kids..
I guess i wont have the time to blog or even go online..
pffffttt..
And maybe i get to skip tuition classes..
Muahahhaa..

OKay..
I have no idea what am i craping anyway..
And Chemistry formulas are killing me..
Do u know that its so friggin hard to memorise so many formulas..
and the formulas are like so weird..
and not to mention ..
LONG!!

oh well..
I guess i just gotta live with it..
Till then..
Take care ..
Bye~~

>...<

i'm so tired..
today i went kawad..
then i went tuition at 2.45..
as usual.. i didnt get to go home..
so i wore my pj shirt there..
hahhahaa..
then i came home at 4.45..
and guess wat .. i took my bath at 5
and i went taman rakyat at 5.30
and the stupidest thing was it rained at 6.30 and
i had to take my bath again..
thanks to the rain..
but i had a great time..
muhahah.

p.s : i told u sure rain wan right.. summore dont wanna believe me..


well.. enough bout that..
the juniors were assigned to get our signature ..
and i swear ..

I WILL TRY TO BE EVIL AND MEAN..

i wanna torture ppl..
but i cant.. wat happened to me..
wat happened to my evil side..
i'm gonna get it back.. muhahaha..

okay.. thats lame..
hahaha..

i dunno wat to say wei..
lol..
i'll stop here then..
till then..
byebye..

HAPPY CNY EVERYONE!!!!!



I WANT MY ANG PAU!!!


hahahha.. no la.. just joking la..


anyway.. have fun everyone..

take care..

exhausted!!

i'm super freaking exhausted..
its like only the 2nd or 3rd week.. and i'm exhausted..
imagine how am i gonna go on like this for another year..
there has been like lots of tuition and homework but luckily i managed to do all..
and stupid Add Maths teacher..
hahaha.. i know.. i'm complaining again...
she gave us work which she havent teach.. and she expects us to do it all.
i feel like telling her this
" if u lazy / dont know how to teach us just tell, dont have to give us lame excuses"
i wish i can tell her that..
wait till i got the guts... then i will..
hahahha..

kawad is so diff this year.. i mean its diff commander thats y..
last year was fun yet strict.. coz the commander is Lee Xiong ..
thats y.. i miss the days when we used to get scolding for talking in line ..
hahahaha..
but now its different.. we can talk and laugh like mad in line.. dont u think its sooo diff..
well, if ur in the skuad then u'll understand..

so after kawad.. i've got like tons of homwork to do.. and teachers give homework like
nobody's business..
serious..
teacher acted like nobody left the class for kawad..
cant they be a little considerate..
got kawad.. so tiring .. got homework summore..
haihz..
i just hope i can stand with it..
And CNY is coming.. cant wait..
i'm gonna get money again. hahaha
i'm broke.. as usual.. hahaha..
lol..
anyway.. Happy Chinese New Year to all..

p.s: i've got lots of homework.. dont think i'll blog that frequent anymore..
take care y'all !!
have fun !!

Finally!!

omigosh.. i just realised that it had been ages since i last posted.. well.. biasa la.. u know la..
school started.. so the hectic life starts..
i have like so many tuition going on.. i dont have to name it coz its almost
the same as others.. hahah.. oh yeah !! i hate my class..
simply because my best best buddy is not there with me..
u know who u are right.. : )
i miss u my buddy.. it has been so weird without u in class wei..
i miss the days when we were in form 1,2 and 3
we argued almost everyday.. i wanna fight with u again..
hahahha..
i know most of u might be thinking i'm crazy.. but its true.. thats how close we are..
and i so hate my teachers.. my add maths teacher is like the worst of the worst..
she couldnt even speak proper English.. so how can we survive add maths ..
and add maths is like the killer of form 4.. wtf..
so 2 words ppl..
STUDY SMART
not hard..
like wat Mr. Prasad said..
Study hard is for cows and bulls ..
NOT HUMANS..
HAHAHAH..
i'm still stressing out on whether shall i quit prefect or not..
but after all the memories being one so far. its not bad..
but i seriously miss my normal life..
being a normal student..
and especially spending more time with my friends and him..
I NEED HELP..
ADVICE ANYONE!!


Roy talked to me today..
p.s( he is the assistant head prefect.)
he said i shouldnt quit.. coz so many other ppl quit already..
he told me this.. there was this student.. he wanted to be a doctor.. and after studying for
2 years.. his passion for doctor suddenly dissappeared..
u know why.. it was because he was more interested in the pay than the job
so.. he told me that ..
it doestn mean that when ur passion for something is gone, u have to quit..
we just have to continue it for the sake of the world..
for the sake of other ppl..

so i thought long about wat he said.. i might not quit prefect..
i still cant decide.. i hope i will soon..

sorry for torturing u guys.. i bet there is no one reading .. hahah..
well.. thats all for now.. wait for my next post whether i quit or not..
hehehehe...



everything is possible to happen.. so do not put so much hope on something u are not sure in..
the more hope u put in , the more pain u will suffer when it fails..